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爱情故事

2009-04-13T17:05:00.001+08:00

有些爱情故事被收在潜意识中。

有些爱情故事连当事人都说不出口。

有些爱情故事只是一个回忆。

有些爱情故事不能存在一个实在的世界。

终有些委屈的爱情能被演译得心甘情愿。

moody

2009-04-08T14:47:00.002+08:00

Quite sometime i have nv been in this mood le, dunno why suddenly become like that .
Feel like i miss quite lots of things , past memories keep flashing and recalling of my happy times and days, but now i m not. Things are quite strangle and puzzle.Is this wat i want to be , the ans is no. Y ? I also dunno just hope that this will be gone soon.

风请替我代努

2009-04-01T13:55:00.003+08:00

曾一起跟你风中上路

信可并肩改变命途

问为什么终改不了命数

命运是否真的须要绝对这么做

真难过难复配合脚步

从今起孤单上路

要找那方不看地图

现在什么都不想有回报

命运若果真想逼我骂我太骄傲

痛哭高呼如何做到最好

眼泪向着冷风扫

挥酒满我路途但你知不知

今天狂哭我继续醉倒我愿你知道

风请替我代努

心却直告尽管我渴望你亦

听未到

new 2009 ....

2009-03-19T13:46:00.005+08:00

WoW... looking at my blog.. It has been 1 year i NV went into le...
One year pass very fast... it like thing just happen recently but it already 1 year ...
Looking back into my life it seem struggle ..... not only lifestyle but also love life...
Sometimes when looking behind i know that i did lots of mistakes that i had change a lots tILL i will judge it into a very long way in a very different path...why it seem too difficult to me..
I just want a simple path but everytimes it will be a very difficult narrow and complicate path for me to go through... it seem that one day i will break down with every little things......
Lots of thing around me makes me feel that this is not what i want.....
Slowly walking down into deep sorrow world....me can settle every thing inclusive outside world but not so smooth and easy to my sorrow world...

心里优愁，谁能知。只有烧酒，能解忧。

闷在心里，无人知。酸酸泪水，心里流。

想要说出，谁能解。痛苦眼泪，藏心内。

谁能了解，我优愁。自己优愁，我了解。

别怕我伤心

2008-03-04T14:05:00.001+08:00

好久没有你的信

好久没有人陪我谈心

怀念你柔情似水的眼睛

是我天空最美丽的星星

异乡的午夜特别冷清

一个男人和一颗热切的心

不知在远方的你是否能感应

我从来不敢给你任何诺言

是因为我知道我们太年轻

你追求的是一种浪漫感觉

还是那不必负责任的热情

心中的话到现在才对你表明

不知道你是否会因此而清醒

让身在远方的我不必为你担心

一颗爱你的心

时时刻刻为你转不停

我的爱也曾经深深温暖你的心灵

你和他之间是否已经有了真感情

别隐瞒对我说

别怕我伤心

birthday

2008-02-25T09:57:00.003+08:00

today is my birthday.............as mi growing one year older le....
every year for mi nothing special...same same lo.....also at hm.....hais......
as mi rite,i have a wish that hope i have my love ones to celebrate with but not at all...........
as being alone in my birthday beta ba......
happy birthday to mi ya wish mi this year win lots and lots of money form singapore pools lo........

i think too much that i cant really or dare to move on

2008-02-15T15:00:00.004+08:00

yesterday is valentine dat and also pai tian gong.. so after my work i rush bck hm to prepare things for praying tian gong....it took mi abt 12 plus then finish all the things as i m also surprise that i dun feel tired....so after my things i did not go to sleep,mi watchn tv till 1 plus after that downloading songs into my pc...accidently in no where i browse into her friendster acc and even blogs...i read the whole things and even see through her photo with him....
seeing that ur loves one goes into other arms wat will u feel ,of course heart pain and a bit emotion....i cant control the feeling then end up..........................................................................
i duno y i will like that... i tell myself not to think but in some situation my feeling or even can say my heart dun allow mi to .....i very difficult...this feeling comes arond mi abt 6 months plus le i still not heal yet....this times is the longest times i cant move on or heal......this cny is 070208 which mean that if we still together it will become our 4 months anni....is double happiness rite but it only alive in my own world....sometimes mi saw them with very happiness smile in photo, i will think of y i end up in this way which i dun wan to ....in every things i can say i win but not in r/s i will fail very easily de...some times i will wonder that is zit mi is a medium that y seldom of gal wil understand or can take it.... is zit this reason.......
someone or lots of people say that if a gal love u lots she will accept de.. but to mi is not i wil think of others way......
hias..........ren ming ba to mi......................................

today is valentine's day

2008-02-14T09:26:00.004+08:00

hais...very year of this today date is always lonely to mi...no programmeS or any gf beside to celebrate with............
if we nv break i think we will celebrate together but it already past liao...so no matter how it goes she will definitly choose her current bf de while i seem like struggle in the deep blue sea..hais.....
duno y become like that ....as every part of it i will be my very best but end up is nothing de lol.....hias.........arr.....................

start working le

2008-02-11T09:39:00.000+08:00

today is the fifth day of chinese new year....
and also my kai gong day...yup in the office lots staff didnt work as some take leave AND even SOME take MC lol....
during cny mi get lots of red packet but some haven open it....and mi today going to open it and put them inside my bank hope that in march i can go oversea....
yup... as for mi this year nothing special lo
taking abt r/s i dun think will go into it... maybe stay single beta ya.........
dun think too much first...hope that this year can take money from singapore pool cos last years i already donate a lots of $ le hope that this year i can have them back of my times 100 of it hahahahahah.......
this year i going to have my class 3 hm......hopefully alll my wish will come true.........
HUAT AR .......

cny lolllllll

2008-02-04T09:30:00.000+08:00

cny is round the conern,and still got 2 days to hit cny .....
step my ex gf msn mi that she is happy that she had a
reunion dinner with her friends and including her bf..........she happy ......
that can be with her bf again,seeing that she happy that great le but sometime mi thinking that if the guy beside her now is mi that great le,seem that it not.dunno y keep thinking of her or maybe will browse throught her photo.but any way she happy can le lol....love sometime makes people irritates,fan,worry and even in some times will make us dare not or maybe think of the past which won be happen again...
hais.....this feeling make mi dead and even fear in r/s le.........even how gd is the gal i still won give her a chance de............single will be beta....
but sometimes will also fel that if there is someone around u to old u tightly or listen to ur nonsense or even hug u tightly and feeling is great there no where can be found if u have come across it.only two of u in the world.hahaha....but this feeling which i have is over le..she won be back.
so at this time i will not invole in any r/s....mi jusy hope that win lottery or win in my majong game in cyn.....hahah ....

new hair style

2008-01-31T22:33:00.000+08:00

nice ma????????

today i went to saloon to colour and hair...haha nice hor....
hm....mi also think that this colou then match mi rather black like uncle...haahaa
but total of this hair style cost mi very very much...heart pain but nvm nice can le....
i can can cover this cost when cyn cos got ANG BAO ma....
mi also haven get a pair of shoe i will g0 and shop maybe monday ba see where g0t cheap and nice ones.....
cyn is around the conern hope that for mi win lots lots lots of money and also ANG BAOs.......hahahaha......will uploads more photo when i free.....
Again in my work loads mi got lots of work le in 1st of feb...hais i hope that this new assignment make mi feel challenging lol but beside that salary wise la...hee.......
hm... wish mi gd luck in every things k ......

my new hair style.....

about mi

2008-01-29T09:19:00.000+08:00

What Louis Tay Chong Xian Means

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.
You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.
You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.
You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.
You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.
You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.
You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.
You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.
You are incredibly sexy and sensual. You have a naughty vibe that no one can ignore.You have an unquenchable desire. And you are unrestrained in your passions.You have a tendency to be unfaithful. Whether you fight it or give in to it is up to you.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

mi again

2008-01-25T13:49:00.000+08:00

this is my nephew cute ma?hm... hope that my future son will be like this cute cute de

mi bought 2 suits of new clothes for him as he is the first nephew i bought some things for .....hm....hope that cyn time he can wear it.....lor ..

on tues i go and see him,talk to him lor even that he cant understand or reply

seeing him that ok le...maybe i like kids ba.....hm...

again no mood

2008-01-21T09:31:00.004+08:00

again is the first day of ths week wow this got 4 days to go for another weekend
u see...
it run so slow as this week also a boring week for mi
hias..........this sat also got to go to changi airport to welcome a god statue from china
as this is from the 保赤宫 in chinatown after that sun i stll need to do for my chinese prayers hais.................boring life to mi ......................
last sat i went to chinatown not seeing the opening of lights while is joining them the lion dance troops to attand the ceremony there r 368 heads of lions .........
my lfe style is like that only nothing special at all..........
hais.............how i wish that it normal that i dun need to care my gods things
as the fact is i cant....
why it only mi who suffer these things which i dislike...
again wat i wish for i cant have it while i dun wish for it always happen
for example:althought step hurt mi deeply but the feeling she gave mi i think that no one can be the same, other feeling is much more dfferent than hers i dunno why it like that..... given mi ths kind of mindset lor but anyway just wishes her happy always
......while looking throught the photos in genting wif her it should let mi hate her but in fact it different t only make my heart tearing lo and not hate her...
wishes u all the best ya....(step)

my god thing

2008-01-11T23:11:00.000+08:00

this is the photo that i went to my friend there......after doing this WOW LAU........very tired.....which i sleep the whole day when my age of 16 i start to do this things le ..no choice!!...it come and look for mi so now i been doing abt to 6 years le....just pray that very things to mi is smoothly lor....

other teenagers have their pathto choose... every weekend can go out while i m doing this for the last past 6 years..it quite fast but i mention before that if one day mi would have to chance to marry i will stop doing it but this is just hope only dunno can a not......

i not so easy to be a medium and it is tiring...whenever,my turn to do or poeple ask mi to help them i will runaway but in the end also must do......hais...wat the point....as i mention not all gals can accept their bf as this de so ... mi just stay single lol.....if there is really ones who truly love and care then see how....

drunk day............

2008-01-11T09:39:00.000+08:00

today is the worst day in my life.
mi yesterday go drink till 4.30am then g0 hm....
as i drink too much................
mi and 3 of my friends(uncle)drink 2 1/2 bottle of martell
drink till very high ..............
i did long time nv drink in this states le................. i wish to be drunk but cant,mi get high only.........
drunk till i can forget all things which hurt mi deeply but end up is mi that get high.................
in the morning still need to get up so early for work........
wow piang..............
each of every glass i drink and hear the sad song which they play make mi think of her again.................
dunno y i will in this state that really cant think of it......
AR.............VERY SIAN...............

new no,new phone and even new life style

2008-01-09T10:14:00.000+08:00

mi yesterday went to bugis with mom........ and mi bought a new phone...which i wan it for a long time le ....................
it sony ericssion k770i.i tink most of the function is beta than nokia which i had in the past.now maybe i might not be use to it but i will try to.. so is the while time i will take as much photo as i can to upload in my blog to see....
hm.......yup upload as many as i can .......................nice photo ba..............

bck to work again

2008-01-08T09:40:00.000+08:00

bck to my work again,very sian but no choice must go work.....
yesterday mi cant sleep,till 2 plus then sleep,dunno y.. i keep listen to song

爱多一次痛多一次。

it a cantonese songs very nice and it meaningful.
i keep listen lol.............but i know i shouldnt think of her but my heart dun listen
when i saw the photos they r in make mi feel down and tears start rolling down from my cheeck
compare to others r/s i have been this and she is the one who only make mi till i cant really move on and forget... i dunno y maybe i love her too much and maybe to stable in r/s........
i told myself not to think too much but heart keep thinking,i think of her but did she really know abt it or does she think of mi?the answer is NO ,cos she had moved on to other arms le as i still holding on....
i noe that i m silly to think that she will come bck but at last she told mi that she already have bf
and in her blog mention that they r too lovely....r/s this game i dare not go into it le...
cos it very hurtful and the pain is very hard that now i still cant forget how hard the pain is it...
very painful and it hurt mi very much....

爱多一次痛多一次,谁能忍受,一个人痛苦已足够.

on leave today

2008-01-07T13:27:00.000+08:00

mi today on leave cos in these three days ,mi doing my gods thing till vey tired,and somemore there is some cuts on my body so i intend to have 1 day leave to rest and recover but thing that 1 days is not enough tomorrow had to go to work again.....
seeing her with other guy make my heart feel sad...but she had gone to other arms and heart le.....
what mi me feel that way and have that feeling i also dunno how to explain it like sad lol......
i may say i will move on but not my heart totally moved.....i dunno y..maybe have not meet a beta ones ba.....
chinese new year is coming soon, i hope that things will change, to be beta and a luckily year ...........
i wish that everything f0r mi is smoothly and hope mi will hve a beta gf and who will not be hurt mi again....... understand mi,ready and stable,caring,think maturely and be frank...
haha but wwat i wan i think it difficult....just hope or dream onli lol...................

love is part of life........

2008-01-04T12:49:00.000+08:00

love is part of life.........
everyone has to go through this feeling called "LOVE"..
to mi LOVE is a gun and some r/s last long while some wont be
indeed now r/s to mi i scare the pain and the deepness of the cut i have....
but love is only just part of life..........
why to mi LOVE is a gun cos it hurt mi lots that till now i afraid going and havin a r/s
mi really afraid that i get hurt again......
having r/s in 2007 it not the year for mi to get too smoothly in r/s..........
but these hurt i get will always stay and remember of it...
it not i want to remember,it is so hurt that the cut is always in my heart........
the feeling which is betrayed,lost of feelings and etc.........

hmm...我就像中了爱情的箭，很痛却在我的身上体验。

REALLY SCARE AND BEING BREAK DOWN...........................
WHO WILL HELP MI!!!!!I THINK NOT ONLY MI AND MYSELF..........
LONELY N TIRED SOUL IS WITH MI .

today event

2008-01-04T10:06:00.000+08:00

today i going to 劈雳五圣坛 to jump god...hais...very tired for mi as i going after work ....
so today there will be playing 8 武器(sharp things)sword,knife,axe,iron needle,etc....
i think after that my blood will splash on my whole body......
as there i will be jumping for 3 days,friday,saturday and sunday.
so i will upload the photos once it ready......
hm...after doing so much thing and so many years in 神坛。
i hope that this year it my luckily year and also win more money
beside that hope that i can find a gf that rally care and truly love me in her whole heart...but i think i difficult la...
me going to break down le,after my work i still need to do this thing and even 3 days lor....but break down in mentally and physically.....just pray or wish that wat i wish for.....

yesterdAY EVENT

2008-01-04T09:51:00.000+08:00

yesterday is my mom birthday so i and my bro celebrate for her as we went to marina square to eat YUKI YAKI.a japanese style steamboat buffet....after mom wanna to see watches as she intend to buy.
so we accompany her as i also wan to bought for her...she saw one as i going to pay le suddenly she change her mind cos it cost abt $300 plus the brand is CYMA...to mi it 0k but she dun wan...but nvm i will buy that watches she see...ha haa...
but dun think that i m loaded it my saving....other than this watch she ask mi to buy ROLEX for her as it cost $1000plus....and nearly $1500....wow......
i say see first cos i going to hong kong in feb....
other than that my brother bought a cake for her....
it a choc flavour as it cost $25plus,it is only a small size of it...very expensive but it nice...after cutting it,it only 8 small slice.....

好难过，你已走到别人的怀抱

2008-01-03T12:40:00.000+08:00

我的心在乎，在乎你已离我而去。

你已走到别人的怀抱，放我一个人。

我默默的看你走进他的世界，你只是留下回忆

只能让我想我们的过去，我好想你，好想拥抱你。

在次和你走进我们的世界，好想在听到你说你爱我。

可是这句话你已说给了他听，心里好难过。

我可望你再度会回到我的世界里，和我在一起。

希望你会回来，我爱你。傻女

当我知道你们相爱

2008-01-03T10:40:00.000+08:00

和你分手已多月

本来不应该怀缅

可是已习惯夜里回忆重演

无法解释也无法改变

刚好接到你一封信

信内说到你的恋情

你和他之间充满美丽憧憬

好想祝福却言不由衷心

当我知道你们相爱

有了开始有了未来

想替你开心人却无法释怀

我的悲哀在眼底徘徊

当我知道你们相爱

我的心底泛起许多无奈

我的心在哭,我真的在乎

你的离开

此情难再

UNHAPPY SAD DAY

2008-01-03T09:53:00.000+08:00

TODAY IS MY MOM BITHDAY...
i would treat her eat and bought present for her....
it would be her happy day today..i hope that she will be happy in 2008...
today is the 3rd day in 2008 ....
and also my heart break and tear in pieces,the feeling is very pain....why my heart feel that cos my ex gf(step)attacted le....
my heart really sad and tears dare not come out from my eyes...
in mouth i wish her all the best but not in my heart...

但我知道你们相爱，我的心在哭，我的心在乎你的离开。

a new year 2008

2008-01-02T09:20:00.000+08:00

it a year 2008.hm... i can share with u that how i spent for 2008 and the last day of 2007
i went to chin swee road which they(uncles)my friend organise buffet over there....nothing special to mi....
after that we go sing k lo....to mi i feel lonely and dunno out of the sudden i felt that...
she got sms mi,and i have reply too....
hm...i do quite miss her but as she say wat had gone mean gone le ...
hais...let be fate ba...
and also it a new year,i hope that this year will bring mi luck and a smoothly year for mi.....
happy new year...

early sunday

2007-12-30T13:37:00.000+08:00

today,mi,my bro and mom g0ing out...haa..it been a long long time we nv have outing together le...
and also celebrate mom birthday too.....hm....we intend to go orchard and have dinner in sakura buffet...
yup there g0t lots of food to eat..i also intend to buy her thing which wat she wants lol...
and i also intend to buy hp for myself cos is spolit le...haha this time u think that i m rich once a while buy hp and wanna g0 hong kong but not lol is i save de and is after mi break with her that time...cos i seldom g0 and ma
and after br0ke off...most of the time i m at home....so seldom use money lol......
hm..i going to go now wil update u all once i come bck ....bye bye ....

lonely in my soul

2007-12-29T18:57:00.000+08:00

yup it mi again to write wat i m going to say
...hm.... it weekend(sat)again,which after ward i going to do my god things le...
every week also the same and evry sat also the same day to mi....nothing special at all....
all to mi is as normal lol is just tat i must do my things......
it goin to be 2008 le....very fast... which this year lots of things happen to mi...
most r unhappy and unforgotten memories...
which really makes mi going to shut down down everything.....
and every thing is not so smoothly this year...
hoping and wish tat in 2008 it a beta year for mi...
and in r/s i dun really and dare to think so much
that this years my r/s make mi tired and scare
so if happen in 2008 i dun wish to make to same things happen again...
for eveythings in 2008 i hope and wish for gd and smoothly year....
no hurt,no tears,no unhappiness,no 3party,no pain.....

myself and her

2007-12-27T23:22:00.000+08:00

it been 11plus le i still cant sleep but i mentally and physcially i feel tired....
dunno y,suddenly feel this way....
i m too feel that i go and see through her blog in aug'07 till oct'07
when i saw it,my tears down from my cheeck.
this is the first time i being like that....
hm.... i can sat that,she is the first galand her family who i meet that really can accept mi
cause i m a 'chinese medium'...........
i miss the days we r...especially in every firday...
cos this is the day i will go her hse and even sleep at her hse
she is also the first gf who i slept over her place.....
how i wish that things would change so suddenly..
she also the first gf that i bring her to oversea in genting....
which all along this is my hope and dream that i will bring my love ones to oversea....
but now she not with mi le,she had gone which i try not to let go but it not under my control wheather wants or not.. people who know mi well will think that i m a funny(who like to tell jokes),easy going guy but in my heart i m sad lol
who can understand my 痛苦。
it not that now i dun have gf or wat,other than this also in my gods thing also.....
the one will really understand.....
not even my gf(if i have) will too......
i been face lots of difficulties and hard path to go.....
i m tired and scare of.......this time round i dare not face.....
to us,as a medium it hardly that we can meet a gal who understand us...it difficult...
dunno y.,...who can....we talk to when i m down,when i m sad,when i needed someone to talk abt my 心事。
and also is not easy to be my gf also,not because my expectation is high,is that who is the one can be with mi and face the problem together with mi which i mention the above.
not everyone or any gal willing one...cos i must do my thing in sat and i hve no time for her in sat also which as a bf suspose to....

2007-12-27T12:41:00.000+08:00

为何不回头在望一眼

为何不轻轻挥你的手

你就这样，离我而去

留下一份谈谈的离愁

为何不回头看看我

我想在静静握你的手

向你诉说你可不要走

原你在能那样爱我

问你到底这是谁错

相爱何必又要分手

无奈何，轻轻一声

但愿你可不要忘了我

我因何未醉

2007-12-26T20:59:00.000+08:00

要醉的今天我因何未醉

爱你的痴心仍是紧随

情被你践碎闪闪的玻璃碎

暗暗我为你洒第一滴眼泪

最怕再听到这痴缠字句

以往的思忆如梦跟随

谁愿意抹去狠狠将心握碎

我要这样痛苦究竟为了谁心碎

谁人能为我轻抹伤心的眼泪

谁人明白我恐惧

情是尖锥你的心是锤

甜梦为何被一一地敲碎

无尽空虚痛的心下垂

呆望着是我不可进退

christmas

2007-12-26T09:38:00.000+08:00

christmas day lots of couple walk past mi............
it seem that it they r very lovely while mi alone watchn them..
as per mi, thought that this christmas i can celebrate with my love ones but not
lol...and i m lonely..
i sms her(step)sending her christmas greeting but she seem that didnt reply
but anyway hope she enjoy her christmas day...
hm.... next monday is also new year eve while also no programme too.......
so maybe stay at hm....as i wanna save money for my hong kong trip in feb'08
in feb i thought of wanna ask her along..........
but dunno will she go...
as wat i have mention before my 22 birthday i would like to spend in hong kong...
hope that she will go with mi as friend lol even that we hve break le ....but ...
hm... things change suddenly...
aarrrrrrrrr..........vry lonely and boring too.........
anyway hope that in 2008..it is a luckily year for mi.....

christmas eve

2007-12-24T09:12:00.000+08:00

today is christmas eve,again bck to office and waited for going bck haha.....
there isnt any thing to do,hopefully after the lunch buffet we can go off.
after work to mi there is nothing special abt,to others they can celebrate with their loves one.
hm.....i think after work i going bck to hm....
after that then go chin swee rd to l00k for uncle they all lo..hias.........
also sian nothing and no where to go............
arrr..............very sian HUH...............................
tomorrow even worst also the same....
but on wed bck to work,it become tired cos no mood.hahah......

super boring

2007-12-23T12:30:00.000+08:00

arrrRRRR.............
MI SUPER BORING Ahhhhhhh
no where to go and mi stay at hm every weekend le daMN sian......
although christmas and new year coming le to mi is normal at all
nothing special.....
hope that got someone ask mi go out ...haha...
tomorrow my company had a lunch buffet at our office hope that it end early and i can go see
my niece xavier(just born)....
after that go hm lol no where to go also ...
arrrrrrrrrrrrr....super sian ahhhhhhhhhhh...........

sick and tired but overall ......

2007-12-21T09:23:00.000+08:00

w0w... i think i didnt write my blog since the paast 4 days.../
yup............. i m sick i was mc..
arr.. sick till very very jia luk........
wanna die..... everyday lay on the bed and no appetite
from bad to worst
but today it seem alrite and only cough and flu......
so hopefully it recover soon.... and again my appetite come bck
hm..again ...
christmas is around the conern,so did u all have any programme....
to mi 'No' thought that i can celebrate with my loves one but very year end up to be alone...
hais.......i nv been celebrate christmas or even new year with my love ones before hope that next year i m not the alone ones..
hm... i dunno how to spend christmas maybe at home or with my sin tua friends(uncles)....
hais.... i dun want to be alone......ARRR............................

boring day i have

2007-12-17T16:34:00.000+08:00

hm... today as i sick i didnt went for work.. so afetr i woke up i watch tv as well as watchn hong kong series... after that had my lunch... and medicine lo...
now another excitment games for mi is PSP...
i have PSP in white and 4 GB memory which i can install or download quite a lots of games... haha.....
and also can watchn movis in that la if it enough space...
hm.. so now i going to play in game le as i have completed it..
which it excited and interesting(rainbow 6)...
hm... going off bye ... i will be uploads my photo once i have change my phone....

boring again

2007-12-16T22:21:00.000+08:00

today i sleep the whole day as i very tired maybe due to yesterday i medium thing end at 12 plus...
i woke up at 12pm and watch tv till 2 pm then after sleep till 7 plus
w0w this time really tired not only in physically and also metally ba..
sometimes when boring or alone,u can definitly think of others things.. as in how and when u r in r/s... hm... somethings in ur mind which not easy to forget... in gd or bad times..
hm...i also had a very long time nv go clubbing le hm.. maybe i will choose a day and wait for my friend free lol...
i had a flu and it make mi feel irrtating and tired.. hais .. hope that it gone away and can go to work tomorrow....
another week coming and still got 1 week plus to christmas le hopfully this christmas full of joy and of course ..........surprise......
i think i will change my mobile phone and as well no ba ...
dnno y suddenly have tis thinking that wanna change suddenly
i will change maybe in 2008 january...

think throughly and see her throughly le

2007-12-15T00:56:00.000+08:00

seeing her tag in blog,i finally see through her and wat kind of person she is...my effort gone to river and love her the past is past le...
i won disturb or call her anymore cos wat i received from her is just a phrase'go away,dun disturb mi'
.. i nv did wrong from the begining and this wat i get..
from the begining i shouldnt love her so much that now i still feel the pain she made ... nvm it past le...i also dun want to think so much...
not i 无情。。is she did that to mi first....
i will move on to let her see that how happy and fortunte i m when i have gf.
so to be frank,i will lead a happy life now in this moment........
so pray for mi that i will find a gd and understand ones
and also must be ready for relationship la...
hm... i think i will move on....
my happy and luckily days coming le...
wish mi gd luck ya.....

love is wat,another weekend

2007-12-14T17:04:00.000+08:00

it another weekend le,
as mi mention before that sat i going to other place to do my medium things
hope that it end early as it very tired...
love is wat is wat i wanna say.....
being a friend and whenn she is ur gf is totally different...
as friend there is nothing just normal, u can neglect her...but when it come to gf u cant,love is a funny and unprdictable things or can say feeling....
in very r/s when end u can only hear SORRY,while saying this sorry didnt u think how much love and time u hve spent just to end up to say SORRY...cant u remember the happy days we have before and so much hardship we went through and in the end u just received a word 'SORRY'.......so i love u in this sentence sometime cant hurt a person that much u cant really imgine how hurt it is......
yesterday i have just completed my 'art' i went for a shading course.
it is quite painfull but i have no choice.....
this symbol means that when u in love that much and end end nothing it like hurting ur heart.
sometime it difficult that break le can be friend... dunno why..............
i think no much now just to heal my wound in my heart....
sometime will accidently my tears drop down from my cheeck and i also duno y.....
maybe my love and feeling put much into it le but take time lo....
hm... on firday i wann like to sit alone inthe mmiddle of the night drinking alone and listen to song, sometime it can bring u bck but it only memories left for u.
and only tears will accompany u throughout the nite maybe i m silly ba....
i will take times during this period to take my driving liencse and of course after that i will have 2nd hand honda car.. this is my wish for next year.....
this year it not a very gd year for mi but hopefully in
2008 i wil have a wonderfull and lucky
year...for mi......
unhappy thing will not be appear in 2008

life style damn boring

2007-12-12T14:27:00.000+08:00

hm......this whole day make mi boring and wanna fell like sleeping
cause it a RAINING day...
To mi raining day is to beta sleep and not for work.
yesterday, i saw the hong kong series 学警更出
in this series there tok abt ploicemen work after they had gradulate from camp
and got tok abt how they fall in love in each other.
after that i went to see 'her' blog........
in deed surprising that wat she wrote...

firday 11 plus she sms mi... and say that she ate 8 panadol and half bottle of cough syrup
that time of course i was worry and she told mi that next life then to be together...
seeing this message i reply her not to and ask her wat going on....
she nv say anything but only sk mi to take care of myself
i scared she did someting foolish or someone bully her...
so i try to call her but she didnt reply i was scare,she even told mi not to call her hse
so in this sitution i was panic.
as i pray that nothing will go wrong to her,and slept at 4 plus...the next day i sms her wanna she fine ma.. she only reply; i m fine.
but yesterday i saw her blog she writen as she having headache....hais.....

i dunno wat to do and or maybe i mistaken or wat.......

在每个地方，在每样东西，我会赢或得到。

但在于感情，我可是个失败者。

永远都在感情里失败。

这不是我要的结局。

boring...sian.,,,,

2007-12-11T16:39:00.000+08:00

today as normal,
nothin to mention or tell u all
christmas is coming,to mi very year also the same nothing special.
also being alone,..hm....
how my wish is that next year onwards i m not ALONE......
i hope i can spend with my love ones
but other things that is that i wanna CHANGE MY HP....
cos this phone already rotten till cant rotten any more
this moblie is abt 1 year plus le
other than that this phone got it story why i take this model
everything is past le...
hopefully i can get one moblie...
hais.....
sometimes when u hope or wish it won appear de
takes time ba...

sian weekend

2007-12-10T13:06:00.000+08:00

hm...mi wriing my blog again nothing special but feel like writing..
last weekend,it quite a boring day for mi..
as usual sat afternoon had a nap,after that do my god things..
hias.. my life style quite boring de but no choice must do for them ..
i hope that after i had married i won be dong le, it quite tired and stress....
after doing it abt going to 12 as i know after that i went to my friend's relative funeral
at yishun...
it very far and on the journey my stomach sound.. hungry la...
hungry till my face turn white...
abt 2 plus,i then reach hm...
so the next day i woke up at 2 plus....
nothing to do but watchn hong kong series... 学警出更。。
watch the whole day till midnight 12....
the whole day rains non stop make mi feel no mood....
hm...nothing special to mi......
hais.... this sat i not doing my god thing at hm..
but i going other place.. they invite my god to go other place
to be guest 做客 ...hais.. dunno wat time can the thing end.......
very far also it at ang mo kio.......

这是爱的代价吗！

2007-12-08T00:31:00.000+08:00

爱一个人好难

难到好像在火里挣扎

是这样的结局吗

在夜里，我独自得的一个人

你一声不说就走了

放我一人在人群中徘徊

你什么也没留下，只留些回忆

回亿让我瞧悴，让我好像醉

美好的回忆，只有短章

我只好默默的看你离开

这是爱的代价吗！

这爱的寂寞

2007-12-03T17:09:00.000+08:00

不敢想你

想了只会让自己流泪

偏偏故意喝醉

还是逃不开你的脸

闭上双眼猜不透你心里还爱谁

时间越走越远

却挥不去你的温柔

这爱的寂寞

这爱的伤痛

深深刻刻印在我心头

褪色的承诺无尽的等候

张开双眼

想不到这夜色这么美

再怎么美也是无味

这爱的寂寞

这爱的伤痛

深深刻刻印在我心头

褪色的承诺

无尽的折磨

sad or happy

2007-11-30T09:35:00.000+08:00

hm......it pay day le.....
that mean that my bank increase of $...
this month i will be become broke cause i wanna buy hp which my hp spoilt
sometime can it can hear other voice when conversation and the reception
of my hp it lousy...hais.....pocket had a big whole again.....
i haven really go and buy but that day i saw a hp which quite nice but dunno gd a not
i have seen n73 or n81...i use nokia cos i think it free user....
hm...i got think sony ericsion which is the latest,
i think is flick ones which it will turn on into other music or song....hm....
wondering singapore pool can sponser mi a not ,
long time nv strike le ....i think g0t 1 year le.....
hais....dunno ....
very boring and sian ..........................
hm....dunno ...

但愿你知道

2007-11-28T13:24:00.001+08:00

多少的风风雨雨

一起冲破困难无数

为什么总走不过这一步

为什么上天要这样安排你退出

太残酷让你走的孤独

不管你身在何处

心里的话想要说出

我从来也不会为谁而哭

真的好想知心的你再回到当初

骂我糊涂对我大声疾呼

眼泪这夜洒何处

我早以不在乎

但愿你知道醉倒在马路的我在哭

但愿你知道请风替我转告

风却在笑我怎么呼喊你也听不到

痛到不能说

2007-11-27T13:13:00.000+08:00

人生有许多难关要过

自古是情关最让人难受

也许我命中注定情海中颠簸

为你我付出这么的多

却让我痛到有苦不能说

因为我爱你就像那飞蛾扑向火

别让我失魂落魄着了魔

解开我的迷惑

收起你的冷漠

你怎忍心这样做

别让我漫漫长夜守寂寞

伤痛已经太多

心也早已伤透

我已不想再为谁去等候

hm.. sad reply

2007-11-26T09:22:00.000+08:00

at last she reply my friendster message le..she say she dun have face to see or meet mi...cos i would like to see her.she told mi that wat's wrong during clubbing when i see it my heart down and sad..she told mi to find a beta gal who really match mi.i dunno wat to do...i really lost.....
but my heart told mi to see her once again。

鼓起勇气来。i will see u sooner cos i dunn wan let her scare,i wanna let her know that i m around no matter wat she is or hw is she.i will accept de..but just hopfully hope.

我认输

2007-11-25T17:25:00.000+08:00

我原本很幸福

无奈会走到这一步

喜欢的人也不再陪我走这条路

眼睁睁的看你离去

寂寞的我只能为你祈帱

静静的守护着你

希望你过得好

不让悲伤陪着你，不让寂寞缠着你

我会把这些痛苦带走

当泪水流干以后

我认输

我的结局

2007-11-24T00:22:00.000+08:00

心好像在雨里

在雨里呼唤着你的名

只是你没听见

我正在寻找你

人就像在风里

在风里徘徊着你的影

却看不到你的背影

我好像使乎离你很远

我好难过，好悲伤

只听见你

听见你叫我离你儿去

到了缠酷的寂寞

寂寞就是我的结局

寂寞天堂

2007-11-22T11:16:00.000+08:00

谁能了解我，谁能够体谅我。

铁了心的我已似呼不再是我。

只有你，

只有你能让我这么狼狈。

忍受的这个结局，承当这个悲伤。

一个人独自地走，一个人独自的奔坊。

往一个不属于自己的方向走，走进了寂寞天堂。

寂寞天堂让我知道你已经走了，

心也不在，人也不在我的身边。

现在的你，也不再爱我了。

眼睁睁得看你离开，离开了我的怀抱，走进繁华的世界。

在你的眼里看见自己的寂寞，

寂寞陪我走进了寂寞天堂。

2007-11-20T11:24:00.000+08:00

到底有谁能够告诉我

要怎样回到从前

有你在我身边

拿生命换都情愿

随风作流浪的梦和你再相逢

请你告诉我

是谁说最坚强的承诺

如今却变得脆弱

请你告诉我

是谁说要永远的等候

如今让我孤独地走

我又曾经拥有甚麽

真心付出结果又如何

请告诉我

我是不是该安静的走开

2007-11-20T11:01:00.000+08:00

我不知道为甚麽这样

爱情不是我想像

就是找不到往你的方向

更别说怎麽遗忘

站在雨里泪水在眼底

不知道该往那里去

心中千万遍不停呼唤你

不停疯狂找寻你

我是不是该安静的走开

还是该勇敢留下来

我也不知道那麽多无奈

可不可以都重来

another boring day

2007-11-19T21:03:00.000+08:00

today i didnt went to work cause i haven recover from bad score throat and fever....
it very boring to stay at hm....
i think i will gone crazy if i continue like that.....(stay @ hm) but sometimes it quite gd cos can save $ ma...
today,i pm her in friendster but i didnt receive her reply.HAIS................
in the lifestyle,i feel very boring,,
eat,work,sleep and we continue this till one day we cant work le and it will become
eat and sleep....(wait for the qenue)(等死）
hais....no meaning at all.......
why not we must cherish the time and being with the one we love
if not we will be regrett if we have not done our part....
要真惜每一刻，
要真惜你的一切，

nothin special...

2007-11-18T21:24:00.000+08:00

today is a weekend but nothin special at all.
when i woke up thought that my sick have recover but it not in the morning i feel damn pain in my head..this two days i had no appetite i think this two day make my weight go down le...
i hope that tomorrow it can be fully recover....i cant be sleep the whole dat cause sat i had already slept the whole day le. so in the afternoon,i went to my grandma's hse...
i had a majong game with my cousin even i had no mood to play i still carry on cos nothing to do beside playing majong...
during the game,suddenly i think of her,think of her that i had majong game with her parents before..y i cant foret her althought we onli togethr for onli 2 months cos among my relationship i had before(3)her family treat mi well as they never say that i m a medium....etc.....
cos this gave mi the feeling that i never had before...i won forget u .....heard that she already had boyfriend le,hope that the guy treat her well and dun bully her...祝福你们，永远幸福快乐。
even though this is not wat i wanna say but i have no choice just wish her happy will do....

help...!!!!

2007-11-17T20:40:00.000+08:00

i was alone again...today never do my medium thing cos i m sick.
in the afternoon,i saw doc.he take my temperature and it was 38.8 it was high fever and my throat was damn pain...i feel help,my whole body pain.feel like vomiting but cant....
doc give me medicine and say if it has not recover on monday go see him again...hais.......
very 辛苦.............help ......
my head also feel giddy..like spining.....tis is the badly sick i have in my whole life.......
again i saw her blog...hopfully that the guy return to her and hug her tightly

我只能默默地看着她去爱别的人，祝你幸福快乐。

爱一回伤一回

2007-11-16T17:46:00.000+08:00

不知不觉，有过了一天。

心情如何呢！我想每一到周末，我想会和她见面。可是这以经过去了。

她也不在和我联络，这是我要的结局吗？

我无法选择，每当，经过我们去过的地方，我会默默地把眼泪往心里流

是我把爱情放得太深还是我太爱她了？我想两样都有。

所谓的我爱你，已不是我了。

所以，我爱你这句话，可说是感动可说是伤人。

原本，我还以为我们能够在一起长久。

人算不如天算。

曾经的事就让虽风儿飘过，不能把她给留住，只能默默地看她走过。。。

走向别人的怀抱，默默的流下眼泪，真心的祝福她。

我俩有缘无份，只好等下世吧！

我不后悔曾经爱过你，只是不能爱你到最后。

我会虽风儿飘过，带我离开这伤心地。

不把伤心路留住

2007-11-16T09:58:00.001+08:00

back to office again.nothing to do,so i blog lor.......
already 4 days never saw her in msn le...maybe now i can suspect that she already block mi away but anyway hope that she doing fine...i have read her blog she had mention that she still care and love the(guy)hais........wat i m is, already past le. maybe she had forgotten our past and proceed
that way she like....i dunno.....let the water flows into the river ba,holding to it,it also will lid out from our hands one day....so no point la.....i already hurt le i dun wan to get another..u cant imagine how painful the hurt is but past is past it cant be back once again.....
today my whole body pain and muscle ache too..cause yesterday nite i playing with dumbell so maybe it tear my muscle lolx....feel like wanna sick le...hais.........
this weekend coming soon le,,....wonder where to go ...any programme ma?
stay at home watchn tv ba i think.....also dunno where to go too..

一个人。。。。

2007-11-15T21:37:00.000+08:00

i was alone @ hm again..brother went out maybe wif his gf ba...momgtg out with her friend and she told mi that she will be late ..ok lolz....
so i write and continue my blogging lor...
to many for u will find that why cant mi meet my friends or look for activity
all friend got gf le accept few of them but dun wan la...dun wan to disturb them as they also have their programme as well wait they meet gal or watch movie with them i like light bulb like that
so only my msn and blog accompany mi lo...
i knew that i may not have more friends like my age cause in my age of 15 i mix around wif uncle more than my sec friends cos of my sin tau maybe...so now my uncle friends more than my 20s friends....haha
my heart try to call her but dunno she will angry a not so i didnt...wonder how she is ,doing fine ma?i read her blog,she still like the guy. when i saw it,i got a feeling that she seem unhappy and sad.when clubbing she will get drunk to forget him...hais........tell mi wat to do？
i really cannot dun wan think of her even if she did not reply mi or wat i will also think of wat is she doing,eat le ma,how's work etc......this have been 1 month plus le i everyday think the same things for her...but i know to mi is unfair or wat but i really cant image from the starting we meet to now things change a lots..till now i must face the reality which is now.i disappointed and can say very sad.
hais........can this sarrow left mi,i really dun want to be in there.i know nobody can help mi step out of the sarrow or the saddness but i really cant step out......people ask mi not to think so much but my heart just cant i dunno y.....
为何幸福你会哭泣

不忍相爱结果是你失去自己

曾有一度让你离去风风雨雨

爱又让我们在一起

我知道你受了委屈

不能否认你我原本太多不同

就像日夜擦身而过

用一生去寻刹那的梦

我已决心爱到底决心不回去

就算一步就踏进地狱今生我决不负你

不负你一句就算你会离去

meaning ful rite ....only sad song will accompany mi throughout the day and nite.......

another boring day

2007-11-15T10:21:00.000+08:00

..hais...............to some people is another new and bright day for them but to mi it another boring day.to mi it not a new or an excited day ,i dunno y ...maybe i afraid of lonely ba....as usual when i reach my desk i will online in msn but i cant see her online ....is she gtg to hide mi or wat...i really dunno.....
but how it is, i won fan or msn her ,now wat i learn from is,dun fall in love easy which u must see the character and is she stable or ready for the relationship....my heart still haven recover the hurt which i have....
in relationship either u r happy or sad when come to the end.
happy=prepare to get marry
sad=break up
for mi now ....i will not be in any relationship cause maybe i haven meet a gd ones ba or maybe who r ready and stable for realtionship.
let fate be la.....

...waiting....

2007-11-14T16:17:00.000+08:00

is another boring day to mi even though it is not a public day or weekend....this weekend like worst still haven find programme for myself...today mom off work so she cook for us today
my favourite chicken wings....
i was online now but cant see her maybe she block mi or not in......must it be a miserable ending
to mi it is.....i feeling which cant say so much and how to explain....she thought that if she continue to treat mi in this way,i will continue to lead a gd life or find a gf gal....even she didnt do that i will lead a gd life,,,but for finding a gal gf i think this must have fate first...i know that no point to hold on cos as she say we r from different world maybe in lifestyle ba...she like clubbing which i don go often...she club till 6 am which i don like to stay till so late...maybe my looks look like i m a chiongster but i m not...i like to accompany my gf (if i have)to shop,watch movie or go the sea side,to cycle or to stroll along the beach or gtg to oversea....maybe i like romance ba but i know that romance won last long...to mi as long as both love each other can le...and must stable in relationship...
playing in relationship is a waste of time and hurt people's feeling.....
hm.....just wish that very thing from today goes smoothly ba.....
christmas is coming le still have abt 1 month plus...hope that this year i won be alone cos every year christmas i was alone so just hope for it ba...不让寂寞带你走.....

.....leaving......

2007-11-13T17:36:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY I SAW ONLINE,SO I ASK HER HOW DID SHE TAKE HER PHONE AS HER PHONE WENT FOR REPAIR.SHE REPLY BUT END UP
SHE SAY:STOP DISTURB MI CAN,I HATE U".
I REPLY:FROM THE STARTING I NEVER DID ANY THING WRONG Y U HATE MI"
WHEN I SAW THIS MESSAGE FROM HER MY HEART SEEM LIKE WANNA CRY,I WANNA TOLD HER THAT U HAVE ALREADY FORGOTTEN OUR HAPPY MEMORIES LE HUH,Y U TREAT MI IN THIS WAY.BUT WAT I ONLY REPLY HER IS THAT NOT I WANT
I REPLY HER :I HATE U,Y U TREAT MI IN THIS WAY."
SHE REPLY :GOOD LO,I HOPE THAT U HATE MI"
AFTER THAT I DIDNT REPLY LE...
ABT 11 PLUS SHE SMS MI
"SORRY BOY..I KNOW I M HARSH BUT IF IT COULD LET YOU LEAD A NEW LIFE ..I REALLY DON MIND U HATE MI.TAKE CARE OF URSELF...
WHEN I SAW HER SMS I WAS HAPPY ALTHOUGH IT JUST FEW WORD WHICH I DUN LIKE TO SEE BUT IT SEEM LIKE SHE STILL CARE FOR MI.IS IT OR NOT I ALSO DUNNO
HAIS.....EVEN BOTH LIKE OR LOVE EACH OTHER,THEY WON BE TOGETHER IS T I BELEIVE IN SO HOPE THAT SHE IS DOING FINE AND TAKE CARE OF HERSELF CAN LE.

love????

2007-11-13T00:03:00.000+08:00

everyone has go through before but has anyone go through how hard which i i cross across before.this is how i starts.
once i love a gal who i waited 5 years.in sec 3 times till i finish my army which is abt my age of 20.To mi this gal whoever she marry to, i think this guy very fortunate.she is different in the way she thinks.she very mature,but she will hide her problem to herself and thinking of ways to help others.still remember that her birthday is just before mi.isnt it so acculate,i know her since she sec 1.we together in someday in april 2001,we together abt few MONTHS ONLY I THINK LESS THAN 6 MONTHS....when we together ya...quite pressure cause in a few months i didnt even hold her hands..tat nvm to mi cause of some reason to her.so i didnt want to force her.
thing change lots,a lots of teachers know that we together tat times and a lots of teacher told her not to be with mi maybe cause that time i very bad la and then she also must study other than tat she is a prefect.haha...cant imagine rite...i this kind of character also can a prefect be my gf huh but this is lastt time wat my character is now on more le.....so many lots of thing happen so we break but i tell her that i will wait and i really waited for her....she even know that i still can remember the first days when i ORD i sms her telling her that i still waiting for her and ask her come out.we have and we went to suntec city then walk to the sea near fullerton.we chat she say that she is happy to see mi still waiting for her .....etc.........but at last we never together cause lots of thing different and also her parents and maybe church friends ba..............
so abt another few months i got into a relationship,she also my schoolmate and things dun went so smoothly,her mom dislike her with mi maybe i m medium ba,..i try a lots of effort but fail..franky i was sad damn sad so i going to put tattoo in my chest.it is a samurai holding a spears pointing towards my heart it indicate mi and remain mi that whenever i was in realtionship in the end my heart will be break......
so in few months later, again i meet a gal she is one of my internet friend who wan to invite mi to her birthday party she i met her there....as conversation start and thing happen we together...she seem ok but when she came into my hse she doesnt want to greet or chat with my realtive as she will give one face...yup maybe her character is like that but wat her father say y being together with a medium..other than this her character towards my family doesnt change.a lots of time becos of her i qurrell with mom...she might not know and doesnt change so that time i was in very difficult position so we break........
later on during my who is my mom godson birthday i met her so she is my brother ex classmate so i ask my brother to ask her no she gave mi and we contact..smoothly we chat on phone and went out.i still remember that the first day we meet i feel very excited that we walk up and down in commonthwealth mrt station firstly we at taxi stand,we wait abt 10 min to my friend place which i wanna ask him something there were no taxi so we walk across the brigde to wait but when we reach to another side i forgot to withdraw money so we went back again.after withdraw money then at last we hired a cab and go to my friends there.at there we stay for a while after that we went to PS to have dinner....we dine in at swensce....after 1 week we been togther but at first thing went very smoothly that i even stay overnite at her hse.. she is the gal that i even stay at her hse every friday....when i sleep at her room our door r open.she ask mi y i did open cause i say any thing ur parent won say any thing ,she find mi very different from her ex,slowly her mom like mi lots who we can chat like a friend.
i spoken to her mom like how i does to my friend who is the same age as her mom.her mom say that i m mature.every thing when i went to her hse i feel happy cause her mom treat mi very good and nv look down on or say y with a medium together.maybe this i feel gd lolx..........
in this relationship i try to give her all my best and whole hearteven she go clubbing i will never say no or wat but i waited for her even thought that she say mi not wait.i worry for her.whether she got get drunk a not or is she @hm safety?i even plan to go genting with her.yes we did @5oct we went but she say that her heart not wif mi...u noe hw i feel when she treat mi liike that...damn pain....i wish i m the one she love and the fate is not.she leave le and ask mi to find a beta one.hiass.....whenever i came across love song i will think abt her and our happy momeries time...i won force u to be with mi but must take care of urself...whoever bully her i will never give a damn and wat my past is i will be back those who bully her i will goes to them...maybe i m silly but i know if someone u love cant be ur side wat can u do is that scretly protect her.if she find tat too fan or irritating time will prove it.
maybe stay on or move on ba.but gd momeries will always in my heart. i really hurts many times le hope that if there is another one i hope i will have a long and stable relationship... but let fate be la........

memorise

2007-11-12T11:22:00.001+08:00

last nite,i she her onlie so i chat with her,she reply very fast.it is the first time she reply so fast since we break.her phone spoil she mention to mi that.along the conversation she also told mi that wat she met someday in mos.i was surprisely and ask her to take care but she seem that i gtg to lecture her.she say i very naggy and she tat we cant be friend also/y she treat mi like this.did i did any thing wrong?hope that she will take care of herself wherever she goes.although we break le,i still worry for her,she ask mi not to wait for her and waste so much time on her,ask mi to find my true love.i m a stranger to her as if that we never know each other before she mention before but to mi cant. i dunno y.she ask mi to take time to heal my hurt.i can do it but cant forget her.suddenly a song came across mi this song it seem like very meaningful it can be describle that during our times up and down and wat she wanna to tell mi earlier which is abt our 1 months plus.this tittle is : zai ni yan li wo kai jian zhi ji de ji mo... i will memorise it hope that we have a chance to sing it together...just hope and wish the days will come true.but i will try the best to move on........

?????

2007-11-10T16:27:00.001+08:00

???
last nite i 4am then sleep.i was chatting on the phone with my ex gf,during the conversation we had talk abt past and now.heard that she had a bf who dote her a lots and happy for her that bless them that they we be together in long term.follow that we chat the days in school and surprisely heard that wat her brother did now.her brother is a medium too...
as a medium is not so easily be.u can save other people but not urself...i regrett to be but i have no choice,...i lost a lots of thing casue i was a medium i really spent a lot fo time in it.i would wan to stop but i dunno how..sometime i will think that i helpp people but who gtg to help mi.when i need help.
i also heard that how life is my ex school mate and wat they had did although it past i really hope that time can be back again during school time.if time can be back , firstly ,i would study hard first but i won le everything is a past that only can recall during the school times.
tonite,i gtg to my brotherrom celebration.brother i here wish u and ur wife stay together forever..amaong us two of my brother rom le dunno who the third one...but i t won be mi cause i know that my sin tua thing haven done finish so if i have gf and willing to rom that time i hope that i can stop my sin tua things.not every gal can accept de if the gal accept rite not every parent can accept also.let fate be la....
if she or he is belong to u soon or later she will.love cannot be force or else in the future both will also suffer.....
November 09, 2007

alone

2007-11-10T16:26:00.001+08:00

alone
today is a public holiday,it a boring day for mi..doning nothing
yesterday nite i watching tv till 3 am..while watchin i drink martell alone dunno y but suddenly fel like drinking.yup my friend got ask mi out but i didnt wan cause maybe no mood ba...if i with her now i think i will accompany her but now nothing...she left le,,...haiz...
by the way in the afternoon i went to sgh to see my godfather he was admitted to hospital but can be discharge tomorrow le... hope he that he is fine...when seeing him like that in this state life r short u dunno what will happen the next moment or the next day.so cherish the ones or thing beside u or cherish everything u have...so if a thing or a person left u will have no regrett cause u have already cherish it or them.tomorrow is friday again,dunno wat to do or where to go..but when i was with her i still can meet her or go to her hse but now nothing...haissss......it already past,now i can onli recall wat and how wonderful thing we had.hope every day she is fine and have a gd day hope that she take care of herself.
see how maybe i will go clubbing with friends but i dunno where to go maybe go hm ba....
November 08, 2007

ex 3rd month anniversary

2007-11-10T16:23:00.000+08:00

ex 3rd month anniversary
Today is mi and sha nu 3rd month anniversay,if we didnt break.she told mi that to move on and find a gd ones.gals are like that when treat them gd they say treat them gd if treat them bad they say bad.haiz....i still think of her i dunno y she cant give mi a chance that we can patch back.when days falls on wed,friday and sat...i will sat i will worry for her dunno when she in clubbing is there anyone bully her...maybe i m silly but when it come into relationship i dun think it is... it is LOVE...i miss the days we have.. it very sweet..everyday i will read through my message which she send mi when we r together..but now ...nothing...i know she she still not stable and i can wait but she did told mi tat when guy say they will wait but at last they won...now i will prove her but scare that she dislike the way i did..a lots of thing there will surely be a ?????of course it also when come into relationship...wat come i do now is that pray and hopfully she is fine and take care of herself.let fate be la...the more i say to her she will find that i very fan.so let her when she is stable she know how to think well and hopfully these days come soon.