15 February 2008

i think too much that i cant really or dare to move on :

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yesterday is valentine dat and also pai tian gong.. so after my work i rush bck hm to prepare things for praying tian gong....it took mi abt 12 plus then finish all the things as i m also surprise that i dun feel tired....so after my things i did not go to sleep,mi watchn tv till 1 plus after that downloading songs into my pc...accidently in no where i browse into her friendster acc and even blogs...i read the whole things and even see through her photo with him....
seeing that ur loves one goes into other arms wat will u feel ,of course heart pain and a bit emotion....i cant control the feeling then end up..........................................................................
i duno y i will like that... i tell myself not to think but in some situation my feeling or even can say my heart dun allow mi to .....i very difficult...this feeling comes arond mi abt 6 months plus le i still not heal yet....this times is the longest times i cant move on or heal......this cny is 070208 which mean that if we still together it will become our 4 months anni....is double happiness rite but it only alive in my own world....sometimes mi saw them with very happiness smile in photo, i will think of y i end up in this way which i dun wan to ....in every things i can say i win but not in r/s i will fail very easily de...some times i will wonder that is zit mi is a medium that y seldom of gal wil understand or can take it.... is zit this reason.......
someone or lots of people say that if a gal love u lots she will accept de.. but to mi is not i wil think of others way......
hias..........ren ming ba to mi......................................

//you left me alone at 3:00 PM