25 February 2008

birthday :

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today is my birthday.............as mi growing one year older le....
every year for mi nothing special...same same lo.....also at hm.....hais......
as mi rite,i have a wish that hope i have my love ones to celebrate with but not at all...........
as being alone in my birthday beta ba......
happy birthday to mi ya wish mi this year win lots and lots of money form singapore pools lo........

//you left me alone at 9:57 AM

15 February 2008

i think too much that i cant really or dare to move on :

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yesterday is valentine dat and also pai tian gong.. so after my work i rush bck hm to prepare things for praying tian gong....it took mi abt 12 plus then finish all the things as i m also surprise that i dun feel tired....so after my things i did not go to sleep,mi watchn tv till 1 plus after that downloading songs into my pc...accidently in no where i browse into her friendster acc and even blogs...i read the whole things and even see through her photo with him....
seeing that ur loves one goes into other arms wat will u feel ,of course heart pain and a bit emotion....i cant control the feeling then end up..........................................................................
i duno y i will like that... i tell myself not to think but in some situation my feeling or even can say my heart dun allow mi to .....i very difficult...this feeling comes arond mi abt 6 months plus le i still not heal yet....this times is the longest times i cant move on or heal......this cny is 070208 which mean that if we still together it will become our 4 months anni....is double happiness rite but it only alive in my own world....sometimes mi saw them with very happiness smile in photo, i will think of y i end up in this way which i dun wan to ....in every things i can say i win but not in r/s i will fail very easily de...some times i will wonder that is zit mi is a medium that y seldom of gal wil understand or can take it.... is zit this reason.......
someone or lots of people say that if a gal love u lots she will accept de.. but to mi is not i wil think of others way......
hias..........ren ming ba to mi......................................

//you left me alone at 3:00 PM

14 February 2008

today is valentine's day :

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hais...very year of this today date is always lonely to mi...no programmeS or any gf beside to celebrate with............
if we nv break i think we will celebrate together but it already past liao...so no matter how it goes she will definitly choose her current bf de while i seem like struggle in the deep blue sea..hais.....
duno y become like that ....as every part of it i will be my very best but end up is nothing de lol.....hias.........arr.....................


//you left me alone at 9:26 AM

11 February 2008

start working le :

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today is the fifth day of chinese new year....
and also my kai gong day...yup in the office lots staff didnt work as some take leave AND even SOME take MC lol....
during cny mi get lots of red packet but some haven open it....and mi today going to open it and put them inside my bank hope that in march i can go oversea....
yup... as for mi this year nothing special lo
taking abt r/s i dun think will go into it... maybe stay single beta ya.........
dun think too much first...hope that this year can take money from singapore pool cos last years i already donate a lots of $ le hope that this year i can have them back of my times 100 of it hahahahahah.......
this year i going to have my class 3 hm......hopefully alll my wish will come true.........
HUAT AR .......


//you left me alone at 9:39 AM

04 February 2008

cny lolllllll :

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cny is round the conern,and still got 2 days to hit cny .....
step my ex gf msn mi that she is happy that she had a
reunion dinner with her friends and including her bf..........she happy ......
that can be with her bf again,seeing that she happy that great le but sometime mi thinking that if the guy beside her now is mi that great le,seem that it not.dunno y keep thinking of her or maybe will browse throught her photo.but any way she happy can le lol....love sometime makes people irritates,fan,worry and even in some times will make us dare not or maybe think of the past which won be happen again...
hais.....this feeling make mi dead and even fear in r/s le.........even how gd is the gal i still won give her a chance de............single will be beta....
but sometimes will also fel that if there is someone around u to old u tightly or listen to ur nonsense or even hug u tightly and feeling is great there no where can be found if u have come across it.only two of u in the world.hahaha....but this feeling which i have is over le..she won be back.
so at this time i will not invole in any r/s....mi jusy hope that win lottery or win in my majong game in cyn.....hahah ....

//you left me alone at 9:30 AM