31 January 2008

new hair style :

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nice ma????????


//you left me alone at 10:33 PM

29 January 2008

about mi :

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What Louis Tay Chong Xian Means

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are incredibly sexy and sensual. You have a naughty vibe that no one can ignore.You have an unquenchable desire. And you are unrestrained in your passions.You have a tendency to be unfaithful. Whether you fight it or give in to it is up to you.

//you left me alone at 9:19 AM

25 January 2008

mi again :

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mi bought 2 suits of new clothes for him as he is the first nephew i bought some things for .....hm....hope that cyn time he can wear it.....lor ..

on tues i go and see him,talk to him lor even that he cant understand or reply

seeing him that ok le...maybe i like kids ba.....hm...

//you left me alone at 1:49 PM

21 January 2008

again no mood :

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again is the first day of ths week wow this got 4 days to go for another weekend
u see...
it run so slow as this week also a boring week for mi
hias..........this sat also got to go to changi airport to welcome a god statue from china
as this is from the 保赤宫 in chinatown after that sun i stll need to do for my chinese prayers hais.................boring life to mi ......................
last sat i went to chinatown not seeing the opening of lights while is joining them the lion dance troops to attand the ceremony there r 368 heads of lions .........
my lfe style is like that only nothing special at all..........
hais.............how i wish that it normal that i dun need to care my gods things
as the fact is i cant....
why it only mi who suffer these things which i dislike...
again wat i wish for i cant have it while i dun wish for it always happen
for example:althought step hurt mi deeply but the feeling she gave mi i think that no one can be the same, other feeling is much more dfferent than hers i dunno why it like that..... given mi ths kind of mindset lor but anyway just wishes her happy always
......while looking throught the photos in genting wif her it should let mi hate her but in fact it different t only make my heart tearing lo and not hate her...
wishes u all the best ya....(step)

//you left me alone at 9:31 AM

11 January 2008

my god thing :

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this is the photo that i went to my friend there......after doing this WOW LAU........very tired.....which i sleep the whole day when my age of 16 i start to do this things le ..no choice!!...it come and look for mi so now i been doing abt to 6 years le....just pray that very things to mi is smoothly lor....

other teenagers have their pathto choose... every weekend can go out while i m doing this for the last past 6 years..it quite fast but i mention before that if one day mi would have to chance to marry i will stop doing it but this is just hope only dunno can a not......

i not so easy to be a medium and it is tiring...whenever,my turn to do or poeple ask mi to help them i will runaway but in the end also must do......hais...wat the point....as i mention not all gals can accept their bf as this de so ... mi just stay single lol.....if there is really ones who truly love and care then see how....

//you left me alone at 11:11 PM

drunk day............ :

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today is the worst day in my life.
mi yesterday go drink till 4.30am then g0 hm....
as i drink too much................
mi and 3 of my friends(uncle)drink 2 1/2 bottle of martell
drink till very high ..............
i did long time nv drink in this states le................. i wish to be drunk but cant,mi get high only.........
drunk till i can forget all things which hurt mi deeply but end up is mi that get high.................
in the morning still need to get up so early for work........
wow piang..............
each of every glass i drink and hear the sad song which they play make mi think of her again.................
dunno y i will in this state that really cant think of it......
AR.............VERY SIAN...............


//you left me alone at 9:39 AM

09 January 2008

new no,new phone and even new life style :

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mi yesterday went to bugis with mom........ and mi bought a new phone...which i wan it for a long time le ....................
it sony ericssion k770i.i tink most of the function is beta than nokia which i had in the past.now maybe i might not be use to it but i will try to.. so is the while time i will take as much photo as i can to upload in my blog to see....
hm.......yup upload as many as i can .......................nice photo ba..............


//you left me alone at 10:14 AM

08 January 2008

bck to work again :

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bck to my work again,very sian but no choice must go work.....
yesterday mi cant sleep,till 2 plus then sleep,dunno y.. i keep listen to song

爱多一次痛多一次。

it a cantonese songs very nice and it meaningful.
i keep listen lol.............but i know i shouldnt think of her but my heart dun listen
when i saw the photos they r in make mi feel down and tears start rolling down from my cheeck
compare to others r/s i have been this and she is the one who only make mi till i cant really move on and forget... i dunno y maybe i love her too much and maybe to stable in r/s........
i told myself not to think too much but heart keep thinking,i think of her but did she really know abt it or does she think of mi?the answer is NO ,cos she had moved on to other arms le as i still holding on....
i noe that i m silly to think that she will come bck but at last she told mi that she already have bf
and in her blog mention that they r too lovely....r/s this game i dare not go into it le...
cos it very hurtful and the pain is very hard that now i still cant forget how hard the pain is it...
very painful and it hurt mi very much....

爱多一次痛多一次,谁能忍受,一个人痛苦已足够.



//you left me alone at 9:40 AM

07 January 2008

on leave today :

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mi today on leave cos in these three days ,mi doing my gods thing till vey tired,and somemore there is some cuts on my body so i intend to have 1 day leave to rest and recover but thing that 1 days is not enough tomorrow had to go to work again.....
seeing her with other guy make my heart feel sad...but she had gone to other arms and heart le.....
what mi me feel that way and have that feeling i also dunno how to explain it like sad lol......
i may say i will move on but not my heart totally moved.....i dunno y..maybe have not meet a beta ones ba.....
chinese new year is coming soon, i hope that things will change, to be beta and a luckily year ...........
i wish that everything f0r mi is smoothly and hope mi will hve a beta gf and who will not be hurt mi again....... understand mi,ready and stable,caring,think maturely and be frank...
haha but wwat i wan i think it difficult....just hope or dream onli lol...................

//you left me alone at 1:27 PM

04 January 2008

love is part of life........ :

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love is part of life.........
everyone has to go through this feeling called "LOVE"..
to mi LOVE is a gun and some r/s last long while some wont be
indeed now r/s to mi i scare the pain and the deepness of the cut i have....
but love is only just part of life..........
why to mi LOVE is a gun cos it hurt mi lots that till now i afraid going and havin a r/s
mi really afraid that i get hurt again......
having r/s in 2007 it not the year for mi to get too smoothly in r/s..........
but these hurt i get will always stay and remember of it...
it not i want to remember,it is so hurt that the cut is always in my heart........
the feeling which is betrayed,lost of feelings and etc.........

hmm...我就像中了爱情的箭，很痛却在我的身上体验。

REALLY SCARE AND BEING BREAK DOWN...........................
WHO WILL HELP MI!!!!!I THINK NOT ONLY MI AND MYSELF..........
LONELY N TIRED SOUL IS WITH MI .





//you left me alone at 12:49 PM

today event :

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today i going to 劈雳五圣坛 to jump god...hais...very tired for mi as i going after work ....
so today there will be playing 8 武器(sharp things)sword,knife,axe,iron needle,etc....
i think after that my blood will splash on my whole body......
as there i will be jumping for 3 days,friday,saturday and sunday.
so i will upload the photos once it ready......
hm...after doing so much thing and so many years in 神坛。
i hope that this year it my luckily year and also win more money
beside that hope that i can find a gf that rally care and truly love me in her whole heart...but i think i difficult la...
me going to break down le,after my work i still need to do this thing and even 3 days lor....but break down in mentally and physically.....just pray or wish that wat i wish for.....



//you left me alone at 10:06 AM

yesterdAY EVENT :

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yesterday is my mom birthday so i and my bro celebrate for her as we went to marina square to eat YUKI YAKI.a japanese style steamboat buffet....after mom wanna to see watches as she intend to buy.
so we accompany her as i also wan to bought for her...she saw one as i going to pay le suddenly she change her mind cos it cost abt $300 plus the brand is CYMA...to mi it 0k but she dun wan...but nvm i will buy that watches she see...ha haa...
but dun think that i m loaded it my saving....other than this watch she ask mi to buy ROLEX for her as it cost $1000plus....and nearly $1500....wow......
i say see first cos i going to hong kong in feb....
other than that my brother bought a cake for her....
it a choc flavour as it cost $25plus,it is only a small size of it...very expensive but it nice...after cutting it,it only 8 small slice.....




//you left me alone at 9:51 AM

03 January 2008

好难过，你已走到别人的怀抱 :

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我的心在乎，在乎你已离我而去。

你已走到别人的怀抱，放我一个人。

我默默的看你走进他的世界，你只是留下回忆

只能让我想我们的过去，我好想你，好想拥抱你。

在次和你走进我们的世界，好想在听到你说你爱我。

可是这句话你已说给了他听，心里好难过。

我可望你再度会回到我的世界里，和我在一起。

希望你会回来，我爱你。傻女

//you left me alone at 12:40 PM

当我知道你们相爱 :

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和你分手已多月

本来不应该怀缅

可是已习惯夜里回忆重演

无法解释也无法改变

刚好接到你一封信

信内说到你的恋情

你和他之间充满美丽憧憬

好想祝福却言不由衷心

当我知道你们相爱

有了开始有了未来

想替你开心人却无法释怀

我的悲哀在眼底徘徊

当我知道你们相爱

我的心底泛起许多无奈

我的心在哭,我真的在乎

你的离开

此情难再

//you left me alone at 10:40 AM

UNHAPPY SAD DAY :

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TODAY IS MY MOM BITHDAY...
i would treat her eat and bought present for her....
it would be her happy day today..i hope that she will be happy in 2008...
today is the 3rd day in 2008 ....
and also my heart break and tear in pieces,the feeling is very pain....why my heart feel that cos my ex gf(step)attacted le....
my heart really sad and tears dare not come out from my eyes...
in mouth i wish her all the best but not in my heart...

但我知道你们相爱，我的心在哭，我的心在乎你的离开。

//you left me alone at 9:53 AM

02 January 2008

a new year 2008 :

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it a year 2008.hm... i can share with u that how i spent for 2008 and the last day of 2007
i went to chin swee road which they(uncles)my friend organise buffet over there....nothing special to mi....
after that we go sing k lo....to mi i feel lonely and dunno out of the sudden i felt that...
she got sms mi,and i have reply too....
hm...i do quite miss her but as she say wat had gone mean gone le ...
hais...let be fate ba...
and also it a new year,i hope that this year will bring mi luck and a smoothly year for mi.....
happy new year...

//you left me alone at 9:20 AM