you left me alone once again.
sigh.
30 December 2007
early sunday
:
today,mi,my bro and mom g0ing out...haa..it been a long long time we nv have outing together le...and also celebrate mom birthday too.....hm....we intend to go orchard and have dinner in sakura buffet...yup there g0t lots of food to eat..i also intend to buy her thing which wat she wants lol...and i also intend to buy hp for myself cos is spolit le...haha this time u think that i m rich once a while buy hp and wanna g0 hong kong but not lol is i save de and is after mi break with her that time...cos i seldom g0 and ma and after br0ke off...most of the time i m at home....so seldom use money lol......hm..i going to go now wil update u all once i come bck ....bye bye ....
//you left me alone at 1:37 PM
29 December 2007
lonely in my soul
:
yup it mi again to write wat i m going to say
...hm.... it weekend(sat)again,which after ward i going to do my god things le...
every week also the same and evry sat also the same day to mi....nothing special at all....
all to mi is as normal lol is just tat i must do my things......
it goin to be 2008 le....very fast... which this year lots of things happen to mi...
most r unhappy and unforgotten memories...
which really makes mi going to shut down down everything.....
and every thing is not so smoothly this year...
hoping and wish tat in 2008 it a beta year for mi...
and in r/s i dun really and dare to think so much
that this years my r/s make mi tired and scare
so if happen in 2008 i dun wish to make to same things happen again...
for eveythings in 2008 i hope and wish for gd and smoothly year....
no hurt,no tears,no unhappiness,no 3party,no pain.....
//you left me alone at 6:57 PM
27 December 2007
myself and her
:
it been 11plus le i still cant sleep but i mentally and physcially i feel tired....dunno y,suddenly feel this way....i m too feel that i go and see through her blog in aug'07 till oct'07 when i saw it,my tears down from my cheeck.this is the first time i being like that....hm.... i can sat that,she is the first galand her family who i meet that really can accept micause i m a 'chinese medium'...........i miss the days we r...especially in every firday...cos this is the day i will go her hse and even sleep at her hseshe is also the first gf who i slept over her place.....how i wish that things would change so suddenly..she also the first gf that i bring her to oversea in genting....which all along this is my hope and dream that i will bring my love ones to oversea....but now she not with mi le,she had gone which i try not to let go but it not under my control wheather wants or not.. people who know mi well will think that i m a funny(who like to tell jokes),easy going guy but in my heart i m sad lolwho can understand my 痛苦。it not that now i dun have gf or wat,other than this also in my gods thing also.....the one will really understand.....not even my gf(if i have) will too......i been face lots of difficulties and hard path to go.....i m tired and scare of.......this time round i dare not face.....to us,as a medium it hardly that we can meet a gal who understand us...it difficult...dunno y.,...who can....we talk to when i m down,when i m sad,when i needed someone to talk abt my 心事。and also is not easy to be my gf also,not because my expectation is high,is that who is the one can be with mi and face the problem together with mi which i mention the above.not everyone or any gal willing one...cos i must do my thing in sat and i hve no time for her in sat also which as a bf suspose to....
//you left me alone at 11:22 PM
:
为何不回头在望一眼
为何不轻轻挥你的手
你就这样，离我而去
留下一份谈谈的离愁
为何不回头看看我
我想在静静握你的手
向你诉说你可不要走
原你在能那样爱我
问你到底这是谁错
相爱何必又要分手
无奈何，轻轻一声
但愿你可不要忘了我
//you left me alone at 12:41 PM
26 December 2007
我因何未醉
:
要醉的今天我因何未醉
爱你的痴心仍是紧随
情被你践碎闪闪的玻璃碎
暗暗我为你洒第一滴眼泪
最怕再听到这痴缠字句
以往的思忆如梦跟随
谁愿意抹去狠狠将心握碎
我要这样痛苦究竟为了谁心碎
谁人能为我轻抹伤心的眼泪
谁人明白我恐惧
情是尖锥你的心是锤
甜梦为何被一一地敲碎
无尽空虚痛的心下垂
呆望着是我不可进退
//you left me alone at 8:59 PM
christmas
:
christmas day lots of couple walk past mi............
it seem that it they r very lovely while mi alone watchn them..
as per mi, thought that this christmas i can celebrate with my love ones but not
lol...and i m lonely..
i sms her(step)sending her christmas greeting but she seem that didnt reply
but anyway hope she enjoy her christmas day...
hm.... next monday is also new year eve while also no programme too.......
so maybe stay at hm....as i wanna save money for my hong kong trip in feb'08
in feb i thought of wanna ask her along..........
but dunno will she go...
as wat i have mention before my 22 birthday i would like to spend in hong kong...
hope that she will go with mi as friend lol even that we hve break le ....but ...
hm... things change suddenly...
aarrrrrrrrr..........vry lonely and boring too.........
anyway hope that in 2008..it is a luckily year for mi.....
//you left me alone at 9:38 AM
24 December 2007
christmas eve
:
today is christmas eve,again bck to office and waited for going bck haha.....
there isnt any thing to do,hopefully after the lunch buffet we can go off.
after work to mi there is nothing special abt,to others they can celebrate with their loves one.
hm.....i think after work i going bck to hm....
after that then go chin swee rd to l00k for uncle they all lo..hias.........
also sian nothing and no where to go............
arrr..............very sian HUH...............................
tomorrow even worst also the same....
but on wed bck to work,it become tired cos no mood.hahah......
//you left me alone at 9:12 AM
23 December 2007
super boring
:
arrrRRRR.............MI SUPER BORING Ahhhhhhhno where to go and mi stay at hm every weekend le daMN sian......although christmas and new year coming le to mi is normal at all nothing special.....hope that got someone ask mi go out ...haha...tomorrow my company had a lunch buffet at our office hope that it end early and i can go see my niece xavier(just born)....after that go hm lol no where to go also ...arrrrrrrrrrrrr....super sian ahhhhhhhhhhh...........
//you left me alone at 12:30 PM
21 December 2007
sick and tired but overall ......
:
w0w... i think i didnt write my blog since the paast 4 days.../yup............. i m sick i was mc..arr.. sick till very very jia luk........wanna die..... everyday lay on the bed and no appetite from bad to worst but today it seem alrite and only cough and flu......so hopefully it recover soon.... and again my appetite come bckhm..again ...christmas is around the conern,so did u all have any programme....to mi 'No' thought that i can celebrate with my loves one but very year end up to be alone...hais.......i nv been celebrate christmas or even new year with my love ones before hope that next year i m not the alone ones..hm... i dunno how to spend christmas maybe at home or with my sin tua friends(uncles)....hais.... i dun want to be alone......ARRR............................
//you left me alone at 9:23 AM
17 December 2007
boring day i have
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hm... today as i sick i didnt went for work.. so afetr i woke up i watch tv as well as watchn hong kong series... after that had my lunch... and medicine lo...now another excitment games for mi is PSP... i have PSP in white and 4 GB memory which i can install or download quite a lots of games... haha.....and also can watchn movis in that la if it enough space...hm.. so now i going to play in game le as i have completed it..which it excited and interesting(rainbow 6)...hm... going off bye ... i will be uploads my photo once i have change my phone....
//you left me alone at 4:34 PM
16 December 2007
boring again
:
today i sleep the whole day as i very tired maybe due to yesterday i medium thing end at 12 plus...i woke up at 12pm and watch tv till 2 pm then after sleep till 7 plus w0w this time really tired not only in physically and also metally ba..sometimes when boring or alone,u can definitly think of others things.. as in how and when u r in r/s... hm... somethings in ur mind which not easy to forget... in gd or bad times.. hm...i also had a very long time nv go clubbing le hm.. maybe i will choose a day and wait for my friend free lol...i had a flu and it make mi feel irrtating and tired.. hais .. hope that it gone away and can go to work tomorrow....another week coming and still got 1 week plus to christmas le hopfully this christmas full of joy and of course ..........surprise......i think i will change my mobile phone and as well no ba ... dnno y suddenly have tis thinking that wanna change suddenly i will change maybe in 2008 january...
//you left me alone at 10:21 PM
15 December 2007
think throughly and see her throughly le
:
seeing her tag in blog,i finally see through her and wat kind of person she is...my effort gone to river and love her the past is past le...
i won disturb or call her anymore cos wat i received from her is just a phrase'go away,dun disturb mi'
.. i nv did wrong from the begining and this wat i get..
from the begining i shouldnt love her so much that now i still feel the pain she made ... nvm it past le...i also dun want to think so much...
not i 无情。。is she did that to mi first....
i will move on to let her see that how happy and fortunte i m when i have gf.
so to be frank,i will lead a happy life now in this moment........
so pray for mi that i will find a gd and understand ones
and also must be ready for relationship la...
hm... i think i will move on....
my happy and luckily days coming le...
wish mi gd luck ya.....
//you left me alone at 12:56 AM
14 December 2007
love is wat,another weekend
:
it another weekend le,as mi mention before that sat i going to other place to do my medium thingshope that it end early as it very tired...love is wat is wat i wanna say.....being a friend and whenn she is ur gf is totally different...as friend there is nothing just normal, u can neglect her...but when it come to gf u cant,love is a funny and unprdictable things or can say feeling....in very r/s when end u can only hear SORRY,while saying this sorry didnt u think how much love and time u hve spent just to end up to say SORRY...cant u remember the happy days we have before and so much hardship we went through and in the end u just received a word 'SORRY'.......so i love u in this sentence sometime cant hurt a person that much u cant really imgine how hurt it is......yesterday i have just completed my 'art' i went for a shading course.
it is quite painfull but i have no choice.....
this symbol means that when u in love that much and end end nothing it like hurting ur heart.
sometime it difficult that break le can be friend... dunno why..............
i think no much now just to heal my wound in my heart....
sometime will accidently my tears drop down from my cheeck and i also duno y.....
maybe my love and feeling put much into it le but take time lo....
hm... on firday i wann like to sit alone inthe mmiddle of the night drinking alone and listen to song, sometime it can bring u bck but it only memories left for u.
and only tears will accompany u throughout the nite maybe i m silly ba....
i will take times during this period to take my driving liencse and of course after that i will have 2nd hand honda car.. this is my wish for next year.....
this year it not a very gd year for mi but hopefully in
2008 i wil have a wonderfull and lucky
year...for mi......
unhappy thing will not be appear in 2008
//you left me alone at 5:04 PM
12 December 2007
life style damn boring
:
hm......this whole day make mi boring and wanna fell like sleeping
cause it a RAINING day...
To mi raining day is to beta sleep and not for work.
yesterday, i saw the hong kong series 学警更出
in this series there tok abt ploicemen work after they had gradulate from camp
and got tok abt how they fall in love in each other.
after that i went to see 'her' blog........
in deed surprising that wat she wrote...
firday 11 plus she sms mi... and say that she ate 8 panadol and half bottle of cough syrup
that time of course i was worry and she told mi that next life then to be together...
seeing this message i reply her not to and ask her wat going on....
she nv say anything but only sk mi to take care of myself
i scared she did someting foolish or someone bully her...
so i try to call her but she didnt reply i was scare,she even told mi not to call her hse
so in this sitution i was panic.
as i pray that nothing will go wrong to her,and slept at 4 plus...the next day i sms her wanna she fine ma.. she only reply; i m fine.
but yesterday i saw her blog she writen as she having headache....hais.....
i dunno wat to do and or maybe i mistaken or wat.......
在每个地方，在每样东西，我会赢或得到。
但在于感情，我可是个失败者。
永远都在感情里失败。
这不是我要的结局。
//you left me alone at 2:27 PM
11 December 2007
boring...sian.,,,,
:
today as normal,
nothin to mention or tell u all
christmas is coming,to mi very year also the same nothing special.
also being alone,..hm....
how my wish is that next year onwards i m not ALONE......
i hope i can spend with my love ones
but other things that is that i wanna CHANGE MY HP....
cos this phone already rotten till cant rotten any more
this moblie is abt 1 year plus le
other than that this phone got it story why i take this model
everything is past le...
hopefully i can get one moblie...
hais.....
sometimes when u hope or wish it won appear de
takes time ba...
//you left me alone at 4:39 PM
10 December 2007
sian weekend
:
hm...mi wriing my blog again nothing special but feel like writing..last weekend,it quite a boring day for mi.. as usual sat afternoon had a nap,after that do my god things..hias.. my life style quite boring de but no choice must do for them ..i hope that after i had married i won be dong le, it quite tired and stress....after doing it abt going to 12 as i know after that i went to my friend's relative funeral at yishun...it very far and on the journey my stomach sound.. hungry la...hungry till my face turn white... abt 2 plus,i then reach hm...so the next day i woke up at 2 plus....nothing to do but watchn hong kong series... 学警出更。。watch the whole day till midnight 12....the whole day rains non stop make mi feel no mood....hm...nothing special to mi......hais.... this sat i not doing my god thing at hm..but i going other place.. they invite my god to go other place to be guest 做客 ...hais.. dunno wat time can the thing end.......very far also it at ang mo kio.......
//you left me alone at 1:06 PM
08 December 2007
这是爱的代价吗！
:
爱一个人好难难到好像在火里挣扎是这样的结局吗在夜里，我独自得的一个人你一声不说就走了放我一人在人群中徘徊 你什么也没留下，只留些回忆回亿让我瞧悴，让我好像醉美好的回忆，只有短章我只好默默的看你离开这是爱的代价吗！
//you left me alone at 12:31 AM
03 December 2007
这爱的寂寞
:
不敢想你
想了只会让自己流泪
偏偏故意喝醉
还是逃不开你的脸
闭上双眼猜不透你心里还爱谁
时间越走越远
却挥不去你的温柔
这爱的寂寞
这爱的伤痛
深深刻刻印在我心头
褪色的承诺无尽的等候
张开双眼
想不到这夜色这么美
再怎么美也是无味
这爱的寂寞
这爱的伤痛
深深刻刻印在我心头
褪色的承诺
无尽的折磨
//you left me alone at 5:09 PM
